Orbit: The Asian American Issue
Volume 15:3, Summer 2014
When I open the door, she smiles as if weve met before,
a wide rimmed basket on her head.
Four hundred grams, she asks, lowering basket to floor,
she squats at the door, waits for no answer.
I shake my head no. No. I don’t want any. I don’t live here.
This is where my mother liveslived, I say in broken Hindi.
She nods. She knows. Boats just came in, she says, slipping prawns
through fingers. Pink comma-shaped rain.
One by one, she peels off shells, tosses them aside.
Her hands dance, bangles tinkle, the piles growtranslucent coats, bare bodies.
One by one, she pierces the tops, pulls out black stringy guts.
Four hundred grams, she says, wrapping it up.
I reach for my wallet, separate rupees from dollars.
Nai, nai, not today, your mother paid me on Tuesdays.
She kept accounts, paid me half, saved the rest. For me.
Her voice is watery.
I know you, she says. Your mother always spoke of you.
You live in Umreeka. You sent us used clothes.
Your children’s, Umreekan, just like new.
From a pouch, she takes out a faded photograph.
See? You remember this pant?