Holly Bass

Indigo

Langston Hughes Tribute IssueVolume 12:1, Winter 2011

Indigo

I am indigo
the color of soul

a black slave
dying white cotton
dark blue

a sea island
full of slave women
bearing new slaves
unaware of emancipation’s
passing

hands stained
with so much indigo
blood seeps black first
pine tar deep
before I can see
it is as red
as everybody else’s

indigo stains the teeth
when you sink them,
ivory, into the
poisoned plum of me

the shroud of my sadness is such
that even black spirituals
sung in backwater churches
cannot rescue me
from my desolation

I’m so blue
the black sea
borrows its hue from me

so blue
sapphires merely emulate
my absence

there are no words for this
in my poor slave’s English

I am
an open wound in an inconspicuous place
a comfortable agreement with death

I am

a slave dance
after a long day of work

I am

the broken neck of a dreamer
the opposite of an orgasm

gatemouth brown cannot utter
my essence
taj mahal cannot wail
my presence
robert johnson came close—
touched his fingers to the surface
of my shimmering waters,
then played ghost

said he’d rather deal
with the spirit world
than exist forever
in my netherworld—
I couldn’t blame him

this blue is the birthplace of blackness
there is no deeper beginning
i live in sadness
i live in sadness
i live in sadness
i live in sadness

 

Holly Bass is a writer, performer and director. Her most recent body of work explores the endless allure of booty—from the Venus Hottentots to video vixens. A Cave Canem fellow, her poems have appeared in Callaloo, nocturnes (re)view, and the anthologies Role Call, Full Moon on K Street: Poems About Washington, DC and The Ringing Ear, Black Poets Lean South. She was a founding member of DC WritersCorps and continues to work as a teaching artist in schools, colleges and community centers. She has received numerous grants from the DC Arts Commission and was one of twenty artists nationwide to receive 2008 Future Aesthetics grant from the Ford Foundation/Hip Hop Theater Festival. In 2014, she initiated a year-round creative writing and performance program at Youth Services Center, a juvenile detention center in northeast DC. To read more by this author: It's Your Mug Anniversary Issue, Vol. 10:2, Spring 2009 Introduction, It's Your Mug Anniversary Issue, Vol. 10:2, Spring 2009 Audio Issue, Vol. 9:4, Fall 2008 Five Poems, Vol. 3:2, Spring 2002